August 21st

I have been in a little of a funk lately. I think it was a combination of a lot of things like getting ready for school, Doug and Steve's mom visiting and then leaving, overthinking things, IIFYM, reverse dieting, etc. on top of that things have really started to slow down, and at this point I don't want to decrease my calories or up my cardio. Right now I am giving myself a much needed little break. (Or at least for the past two days!) today I am getting back on track just trying to increase my calories a bit. I may try the reverse dieting thing, but right now I just don't feel like counting the calories! We'll see how it goes. I have to remind myself I am in a good place right now, so if I am not losing fat but gaining muscle that's ok!

August 9th

Just a quick update....I am still doing great, but I am not really following the Live Fit trainer anymore.  I am actually fine with this since I am looking at a long term goal now instead of just 12 weeks. This is much more a way of life for me now! I had an issue two weeks ago that made me take a week off from lifting. I increased my cardio a little and started lifting again this week. I really missed it and am so happy to be lifting again! I weighed in at work yesterday at 167.1 which is awesome! Despite this I wonder how much more I will have to lose to see the definition I want to see. I try to remind myself I am at a really good place right now. It might not be until next summer until I look good in a thong and that's ok! I also was thinking today that this is like an experiment for me. I can do what I want to and see if it works for me...things like morning cardio or cardio after lifting (which I would try but limit!) also keeping good fat in my diet...I was reading a blog where someone cut out almost all of their fat for a bikini contest. This just doesn't seem right! That's about all for now! Just enjoying the rest of Steve's birthday weekend! I'm sure I'll be ready to get back on track on Monday!