Well here I am at work on another Saturday. At least I won't have to do this again until December! It is going to be a gorgeous fall day today, so that kinda stinks. I got back on track last week. It was actually easy, and I feel great. If anything I feel a little leaner! Probably not but at least I feel great. I guess it goes to show you can take a week off from training and eat bad and then get back on track. It can be done! One positive about working all day on Saturday is that I eat good! Now if I could just work out too! I've got two nights next week. I am planning to do at least chest, back and shoulders before they start and then maybe legs next weekend. I think I may have strained something doing legs on Thursday, so it might be better to have a little more rest before hitting them again. Oh how I love my leg day! Also need to research and think about changing up my workout a little. I feel like I've made so much progress, but wonder what I could do if I added and changed things up a bit! Then again I think just keep doing what you are doing and wait until January then you will really make progress...well enough rambling.

I have been thinking about October 15th, which is baby loss day. A few people posted something on the 15th to recognize this day, and I did nothing. I didn't even think to light a candle. I guess you could say that is a good thing in one way. Life has become so "normal" for me that I don't even think about things like that. However I am disappointed in myself. I remember after losing Luke thinking why don't people talk more about losing babies, and I remember thinking that wouldn't be me. I would change things. Umm no that didn't happen. Well next year I hope that I will light a candle and think about my sweet boy.

I kind of feel like I am at a critical point right now! In the past week I can tell I have gained a little and not in a good way! I survived and actually did great over the weekend of Oktoberfest! However this past week has been different. I still feel good and motivated and I am not letting this bring me down! Last Thursday we went to Zac brown. On Friday I had my procedure at Dr. Watters-for some reason this was my downfall last year! They said I could do elliptical but no lifting for a week. I guess that's where the problem came in! The change in my schedule along with no lifting messed me up. Rob and Kim came down on Tuesday...I was doing pretty good eating until then! Well minus the usual weekend. We ate a lot along with zero working out! I did workout once last week-I had a pretty good 30 minute elliptical workout Monday afternoon. Rob and Kim left on Thursday which was depressing then I had to work 9-7 that night. Now I am working 12 hours today on Saturday. While Steve is home with sick girls! The positive for me is that it is easy to eat good today since I'm at work. Since it has been a week I am thinking of working out tonight after the girls go to bed. I am ready to get back on track and prove I can do this even when things get hard. I am excited to get that fitness feeling back and maybe shred a little fat! Definitely ready to pack on some muscle. I know I will do this! I have come too far to slip back in my old habits!