Last Wednesday I found myself eating lunch with one of our ED doctors. I have seen him quite a few times since I started working at the healthplex, and I thought he looked familiar. I just had this feeling that it was him. I always wondered if he recognized me also. I thought I should say something, partly because I wanted to know and also because if it was him I wanted to tell him we went on to have two beautiful, healthy daughters. I found myself alone with him in the room, and I just did it. I asked him if he worked at any other campuses. He said yes, pretty much all of them. I asked if he had ever worked at the children's ED. He said yes again, and then why. I wasn't sure how to say it. I said I probably shouldn't have said anything, but I thought you looked familiar and I thought he was the doctor working the night Luke went to Heaven. He remembered being on the phone with UNC, and I asked him if he had lost a child. He said yes their first son. So, right then I knew it was him. It was hard, so many feelings came back. Feelings that I have been keeping bottled up. I realized this could happen again 20 years from now. We could be out somewhere and run into someone from UNC. He asked if we had other children, and I told him we had two beautiful daughters. As I was leaving I told him we really appreciated all he did. I felt bad bringing everything up-you know you are the doctor that worked on our son and then he died. I think the whole situation was sort of awkward-how could it not be? However, I am glad I did it. It is hard losing Luke and not having our son here with us, but I am so thankful for these beautiful daughters. They are my sunshine!
Yesterday we took both girls up to our field to do a photo shoot. I thought we would put them in their Christmas dresses and try to get a few good pictures of them together. Of course it didn't happen. I'm really not surprised I just thought maybe I could get some good pictures. Oh well, this is about the best one of both of them!
I think it is kind of a cool picture, but I think my exposure or white balance was off. I will just have to keep practicing. Today Dad went to church with me and the girls. The choir sang the cantata, so it was really nice. Then tonight we went to Krista's church for their Christmas program. Ashley sang and sounded great!
